On Purpose

As many of you know, one of the things I struggle with is epilepsy, which means having seizures. I have all kinds of seizures, usually they are small and you would hardly be able to tell I was having one. But I have also had the big scary ones that are harder on the family than on me, since I don't remember them.

Sometimes I really hate having bad health.

One of the worst parts of epilepsy is not being able to drive. It's hard to give up the independence that driving brings. (Thankfully my family is great and takes me wherever I need to go).

My friend recently recommended the book, The Grand Weaver, by Ravi Zacharias.  The first chapter is called, Your DNA matters, and it was so relevant to my life, since my doctor had recently done a DNA test on me and he could see in my DNA the reason I've been having seizures.  Here is an excerpt from that chapter...

"To be able to accept the wonder and the marvel of one's own personality, however flawed or 'accidental', and place it in and trust it to the hands of the One who made it, is one of the greatest achievements in life. His 'registration number' is on you. Your DNA matters because the essence of who you are matters and whose you are by design matters.  Every little feature and 'accident' of your personality matter. Consider it God's sovereign imprint on you."

God made me the way I am for a reason. And he made you the way you are for a reason. He can be trusted. There is something specific that he wants me to do that I wouldn't be able to do if I had all the energy in the world and was always rushing around here and there in my car.

Blessed is the man who makes the LORD his trust...

Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done.

The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; 

we're I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.

Psalm 40:4-5

I'm looking forward to seeing God's purpose unfold!